Butterfly fly away

I wanted to post this tomorrow but since I won't have time to do so I decided to do it today, one day earlier.

19.9.2014. That was the day when my whole life changed. I quit my job in Elisa, packed everything I got into one big suitcase, left my life in Finland behind me and moved to Cyprus.

I cannot believe it has already been four years. I'm so proud of my 21 year old self for being able to do something that big and life changing. Back then tho everything was so much different. I never thought my life would be like this what it is now. I was in a relationship, which I thought would last for lifetime. I was so naive and in love. I never thought four years later I would be single, living by myself with a cat. I used to hate cats and look at me now, I've turned into a cat lady.  

I'm so proud of myself tho, I have a job that I love, my studies are going rather well and hopefully in two years I will graduate, I have a nice car and good people around me. I've actually grown up and my life view has completely changed over these years. I've learnt about so many different cultures and how to deal with different kind of people.

Am I happier here than I was in Finland? Hell yeah. I cannot say I am completely happy tho. I still got lot of things I need to work on but I am slowly getting there. Hopefully. I do have days when I feel alone and sad, few times I've almost given up and though about going back home but then I've realized that I wouldn't be happier there. Yes I do miss my best friend and my family, but other than that Finland has nothing more to offer me. I am not saying I would never go back, but at this point, Cyprus is where I belong to.

During these four years I've met a lot of new people. From shy and reserved girl I've turned into social one (ok who am I kidding I am still quite shy) who don't give a sh*t what other people say or think.  I am so grateful for my friends, I don't know if I could have done all this without them. Specially my other half who completes my half Finnish half Cypriot roots, thank you so much for being always there for me, even during periods when I wasn't so lovable haha!   

I hope four years from now I have finally found my happiness. I hope have finished my studies and have a job as an accountant or auditor. I hope I will find the right person to share my life with. 

I hope this wasn't too deep again, but I thought I want to share my thoughts and feelings. Life is not always bed of roses and I don't want to pretend or say my life is.

With love,
Stella xxx

Lost Lamb

Hola blog!

Maybe I should just give up with this blog 😅 I just can't seem to get into the routine to update this regularly. I doubt that I even have any readers left anymore haha but it's cool. 

So what's been going on with me then? These past 6 months have been pretty crazy for me. I've had my family and relatives visiting me, studied loads, worked, spent some quality time with my close ones and just enjoyed life. 

I'm not gonna lie, end of winter / beginning of spring time was really hard for me, mentally. There was times when I felt like giving up on everything and going back to Finland. But thank god I have amazing people around me who helped me to get through it all. I still can't say I'm 100% okay, but I will be. I'm working hard on it. The thing is, if you try to push away all the feelings you have, at some point the reality hits you and you are forced to just stop and think about everything, you need to go through all the stuff you tried so hard not to think about. The past 2 years I've tried to convince myself everything was good, I'm happier now. And I kind of am, but then the reality hit me and I realized that I'm still broken. I am getting better tho, my self confident is finally coming back.  

First my aunt and her husband came here for one week in April. I went to Protaras to meet up with them, I honestly fell in love with that place (I will do separate post about Protaras and travelling in Cyprus I think). I honestly can't believe I've lived in Cyprus nearly 4 years and there are still so many places I need to visit. People are actually paying thousands to come here and then there's me, who has everything within 1 hour drive and I haven't taken advantage of it.  

Beginning of May my dad and brother came here as well. I can't even describe how happy I was to see them. It had been 1.5 years since I last saw my brother, so spending 10 days with him was really nice.  

My studies are going pretty good as well. I'm so proud of myself that I still have the energy and will to study. It is very stressful, and I had few breakouts before my exam on Monday, but I know that when I will finish with the ACCA it will all be worth it. I'm doing this all for me and for better future.  I still have one more class to take and then after that I can finally start doing the assignments for my bachelor!!  

Anw because I think no one even read this all the way here I will stop now. This was just kind of update how have I been lately post.   

I'm going tomorrow to try this Velasmooth treatment for cellulite. I will be doing review on this how well it works and if its worth of trying, so ladies, stay  tuned! 

- Stella xoxo 

Athens part 1

End of October me and my two friends had girls trip to Athens. That was my first holiday that wasn't to Finland or Cyprus! It was just what we needed and I had so much fun there. We were staying there for 4 nights.

We were staying in this hotel called Stanley which was located in Karaiskaki Square. The location of the hotel was actually very good even though it wasn't exactly in the city center. The metro station was right next to our hotel and it took us only few minutes to get to the city center which was decent. The metro tickets were 1.40 for one way. We ended up using taxi a lot, and the prices were not that expensive,I think.

We had breakfast included and the first day we were having our breakfast with the lower class but then we got our room upgraded, thanks to my friends, so we ended up getting upgraded breakfast too ! They got pretty large selection of everything so I would definitely recommend taking breakfast as well. The hotel had swimming pool and rooftop bar with this amazing view to Acropolis!

Our first day in Athens was very interesting. As usual, something had to go wrong! As soon as we landed, we went to this shopping village called McArthur Glen. It was very nice place but you need more than one day to see everything. They had all kind of designer outlets like Nike, Adidas, Tommy Hilfiger,  Marco Polo, Guess etc. I definitely recommend it for everyone visiting Athens! It wasn't enough that we were all dead from the trip and all that shopping, but the day we arrived in Athens happened to be the day when the Metro was out of use due to some strike. We had to take the bus and change it few times to get to Syntagma. Little did we know that the buses would be so full that you wouldn't even have enough space to breath. The bus drive took us about 4 hours and I was kind of getting a minor panic attack as people were pushing each other and no one could move. That's how crazy it was. In the end we got to Syntagma and from there we took taxi to our hotel only to find out that the room we booked was not what we had expected. That's why the next day they gave us a much better room !

On our first night I went to meet my friend who I had not seen for quite a long time. We went to this bar where you could see Acropolis and man it was amazing! He couldn't have chosen a better place to take me hahah! After that I met with the girls and we went to the Gazi to have some dinner. Honestly, I've never had better gyros than in that place! I just cant remember the name of that restaurant. 

We were so tired after all that travelling so after our dinner we head back to the hotel and went to sleep.

XoXo, Stella 

Back on track

It's been way too long since I last wrote here. I'm not even sure anymore how to start this thing.
I've missed blogging so much but I just kind of lost my motivation at one point. I had so many things going on in my life that I didn't have the time or energy to start writing. Although now that I'm thinking, maybe blogging would have helped me but anyways, I'm back ! And hopefully for long time haha.

2017 went past way too fast! It was one of the best and worst years of my life so far. I grew up so much as a person during last year and I am planning on continuing that self development even more this year. I can say I'm definitely much happier now that I was in the beginning of 2017.   I have my friends by my side, I finally found peace in my life, I have a job that I like and my studies are still going well (hopefully haha will get the results in week, eek!)

I still haven't complete decided what I will do with my blog. Maybe I will write more personal stuff here as I believe it might be helpful for people going through the same things I went trough. On the other hand I would like to make this blog fashion/beauty/travel related so we will see about that. Only time will tell haha!

That's it for now.  

XoXo, Stella